Julian: Lan said something similar to me, too... that there were things about him that he might not be able to tell me.
He was worried that if I did know, I wouldn't like him anymore.
And that he might end up hurting me.
"I know who Sydney Morgan is," "I've always known," "What if I was Sydney Morgan?"
His expressions when he said those things... he almost looked desperate.
Like he had so much more to say and it hurt him to say it.
What if... this whole time, he's been feeling bad about something he can't even control...?